Rocker Ryan Adams has penned an apology letter claiming he is “still reeling from the ripples of devastating effects that my actions triggered.”
The singer-songwriter has been lying low since 2019 when he was accused of emotional and sexual misconduct toward women, including an underage songwriter. One of the women was Adams’ ex-wife Mandy Moore who said the former Whiskeytown rocker was emotionally abusive and controlling during their seven-year marriage from 2009 to 2016.
The singer claims he has spent the last year in therapy and kicking booze.
“In my effort to be a better man, I have fought to get sober, but this time I’m doing it with professional help. Sobriety is a priority in my life, and so is my mental health. These, as I’m learning, go hand in hand,” he wrote in a letter posted on the Daily Mail.
Adams opened the letter with an apology to those he hurt. “There are no words to express how bad I feel about the ways I’ve mistreated people throughout my life and career. All I can say is that I’m sorry. It’s that simple. This period of isolation and reflection made me realize that I needed to make significant changes in my life.
To the cynics who may say this is a career comeback attempt,” Adams, continued: “To a lot of people this will just seem like the same empty bulls–t apology that I’ve always used when I was called out, and all I can say is, this time it is different. Having truly realized the harm that I’ve caused, it wrecked me, and I’m still reeling from the ripples of the devastating effects that my actions triggered.”
After the accusations that surfaced in a February 2019 bombshell New York Times piece in which the women said “Adams offered to jumpstart their music careers, then pursued them sexually and in some cases retaliated when they spurned him,” Adams scrapped a planned album and tour. With the exception of several social media posts last year, he has remained mostly quiet.
Adams acknowledges his actions in the past were due to his own issues, writing: “I took a hard look inwards and sought to find the truth behind them. What pain was I carrying myself that was so poorly and wrongly being projected onto others? I made a promise to myself that no matter what it took, I would get to the root of these issues and finally start to fix myself so I could be a better friend, a better partner, and a better man overall.”
However, Adams explained he is not expecting forgiveness for the harmful past behaviors but promises to be a better man going forward,
“That being said,” Adams wrote, “no amount of growth will ever take away the suffering I had caused. I will never be off the hook and I am fully accountable for my harmful behavior, and will be for my actions moving forward. … I hope that the people I’ve hurt will heal. And I hope that they will find a way to forgive me.”